Randolph Garrett

As bad as you may think it is, there is always someone who has had it worse.

Continued:

Stress factors today (7/30/11)

• Waiting for email contact from a person I need desperately to get the remaining fur from to continue the fursuit.  She hasn't answered email nor do I have her phone number.  It's critical
• I've been called fat, ugly, and stupid all my life
• Non-aspies complain about my email attempts to socialize
• I'm trying to develop friendships with the Aspie-ness making it nearly impossible
• Trying hard to control my feelings
• Dealing with poverty
• Fix and repairing every damned thing
• Deal with hearing impairment problems
• Building a fursuit on a budget so tight I can't buy shoe strings
• Trying to go to fursuit events, all are 40 to 50 miles away and rare
• One BAF organizer told me to "go somewhere else" regarding BAF events
• Trying to NOT advocate for the disabled, and play the "Supercrip"
• Deal with almost no one on BAF who understands disabilities
• Trying to get back into a career / income
• Dealing with focus and priority issues
• Dealing with a computer with various annoying problems and major issues from time to time
• Dealing with a nightmare landlord
• In a way, the list is endless

I have always tried to "get in" to friendship circles, yet I never get invited.  I do a lot for people and all they do is take advantage of me and never become a real friend.

I've learned every damned thing about socializing and friendship and have applied them to no avail.

As a result I have crisis after crisis from the loneliness.  And frustration as people act so stupid and think things are easy for persons with disabilities.

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